Namaste

"It only takes a meeting ourselves in this moment, starting from where we are and letting each of our stories and truths surface from the simple acts of sit, write, stretch."- A word on meditation and writing combing forces.

The power of writing and meditation when combined can be breathtaking. Whenever I am in a yoga class, I am not just meditating as I should be, I am thinking...constantly. But it is a great way for me to continuously get out those thoughts in silence and stillness which we often do not get time to do. When we are meditating we think we need to solely be calming ourselves, finding the beauty in silence. That is what I always expected of myself. Now I have come to find the beauty in the silence, but also the fact that I am able to calmly think without speaking or pacing, closing my eyes helps so much to visualize my thoughts as well. Trust me. Being a nanny can really force you to enjoy silence and time alone!

I have learned so much about myself the last few months and meditating THEN writing really brings out a lot more thoughts than simply sitting down, pen to paper, forcing myself to let it out. My best thoughts, most intimate thoughts come when I least expect them to. Often times I can't write them down which makes them that much more personal and intimate. It brings a sense of peace to me in a way just knowing that I have been able to come to certain realizations and think certain thoughts which never before had occurred to me.

I have come to a point in my life where I don't speak as much as I write. I can't say I dislike this because writing in a way makes it more permanent. I can write don everything in that instant steering clear of any judgment but my own. I have come to not judge myself so harshly too. Writing things down is so much easier than saying it out loud especially if it is meant for someone else because again face to face encounters are not always the easiest. Some things are just so much better to the eyes than the ears. This could be why I much prefer to read song lyrics than to actually hear the song itself. I never thought why I preferred it to be that way until now.

I sometimes pretend that like my writings, my life is just a rough draft. If I make mistakes it will all be ok in the end. A great ending can sometimes make up for a slow beginning or re- beginning.